Why Me?

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Some things never change. I told myself, after high school, that I would change,that i would become more outgoing, and start a new life, and make more friends. I feel so pathetic, and i hate myself. i hate being me. It's not fair. I dont have anything, or anything going for me and I dont know what to do to change that. what is it about me that won't change that people wont accept?? I dont understand, and I'm afriad i never will. I was watchign Ripleys Believe it or not, and there was this girl on there and she had no arms, so she had to do everything with her feet, even drive! And she met a guy and they got married and she had a baby and she is soo happy and doesn't even care about her disability. How is that possible when i can't get even a girl to be my friend, let alone a guy to date me. Maybe i am just complainign to much, cuz i seem to do that alot, but my life sucks- especially being in college. It's just sad. I want to change, but i dont know how. I want to be "made" hehe.