Senior Year

Once again, it's that time of year again: purchase all new pens and notebooks, spend a fortune on textbooks, and clean off the cobwebs that have made a home of my mind over the summer. It is only the second day of classes and I feel beat. "How is this possible?" You ask. Well, I suppose once the bad luck starts, and falls after one event after another like dominos, it's hard to get back up again. BUT, despite my some-what miserable summer with certain circumstances and the recent turn of unfortunate events, I must go on and accomplish the goals I have come here to acheive! I cannot give up hope. Why, that wouldn't be courageous at all, would it? Now, please note, I would never give up, considering the fact that this is my last year and it is, in fact, only the second day. I suppose it is just a little bit of fear and a feeling of being overwhelmed. Also, again- its my last year! What will I do after this? What is all of this?? A job sounds nice because it will bring me money and a place to live. Graduate school also sounds nice because it will delay "the job" even further BUT I will have more student loans and more work AND 2-3 more years of school. How does one decide? I have to admit, decision-making is one of the hardest things about college...even life in general. From, which school should I go to? to Should I marry this Person? Can I live with them forever? What if I make the wrong decision- it may seem like the right one at the time, but later on down the road, when you think it's far behind your beaten path, it comes back around like a bumorang and kicks you in the ass.

So, this is how I am starting the semester...with all these thoughts screaming and kicking inside of my frazzled brain.