New Semester

Sometimes I really hate my life, like I have nothing to live for. Nothing ever seems to go right in my life, and I don't know why. I know there is a god, but why is he never on my side? Everything always seems screwed up, even when things are looking good, they go down again. I don't understand it. Today was the first day of classes. I had a rough day and I am so tired right now. I have no clue what i want to do wit hmy life. I thought that coming to NAU was the right decision for me- that it would answer all of my problems. was it the right choice to make? All I wanna do is get a good paying job so that I can get all of t he great things in life- a good car, a house, and live happily ever after. Nicole doesn't even know how good she has it. She doesn'thave to work for anything...sure she has to raise her children, but at least she knows hwat her life has in stole for her, right? I dont understand life at all, and i wish i did. I am almost 22 years old...Most people my age are graduated from college already. Why have all of my choices been so horrible! why is god sooo against everything i do and don't help me at all? is it cuz i'm not as committed as some people who are so devoted to the lord? I believe in god. I dont deny it. why can't i just get what i want without problems? I guess it's just how life is and I should just grow up and deal with it.
i'm gonna let this out in the air and hope that i get this together, get my life together soon. i hate feeling so lost. Let's hope so anyways. :-)
I am also kind of curious if anybody actually reads these or not...kinda would be nice for some feedback and/or suggestions :-) thanks!

I'm a 90's Kid

You know you're a 90's kid if...
[x] You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
[x] You can sing the rap to "The Fresh Prince of Bel Air"
[x] You've worn skorts and felt stylish
[x] You yearned to be part of the Baby-Sitters Club
[x] You use to love playing with your MY Little Pet Shop
[x] You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey from "Blossom" and that "How Rude!" comes from Stephanie from "Full House"
[] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on Sat. to watch cartoons.
[x] You wore a ponytail on the side of your head and had fluffed bangs
[x] You got super excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.
[] You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in kindergarten.
[x] You remember reading "Goosebumps".
[x] You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, wax off".
[x] You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
[] You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
[x] You still get the urge to say "NOT" after (almost) every sentence.
[x] You watched Tiny Tunes or MuppetBabies.
[] You were a boy who wore pink.
[x] You knew that Kimberly (pink ranger) and Tommy (green ranger) were meant to be together.
[x] The best friend coming through the window on a ladder originated on Clarissa Explains it all, not on Dawsons Creek.
[x] You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up".
[x] You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
[x] You ever got injured on a Slip-n-slide.
[x] You wore socks scrunched down.
[] You wore chucks in kindergarten.
[x] "Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack, all dressed in black black black, with silver buttons, buttons, buttons, all down her back back back, she asked her mother mother mother for fifty cents cents cents to see the elephants elephants elephants jump over the fence fence fence. They jumped so high high high, they touched the sky sky sky, and didn't come back back back till the fourth of july ly ly. They jumped so low ow ow, he stumbed his toe oe oe, and thats the end end end of the elephant show show show.
[x] You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.
[] You had to pay for the Disney Channel.
[x] You knew what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare"
[x] You remember Alf, the little brown alien from Melmac and Vicki the robot from "My Little Wonder".
[] You watched 90210 or Melrose Place with your mom.
[x] You actually dressed up in kids clothes, and not miniture versions of teenager clothes like the children of 2000!
[x] You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
[x] You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell".
[x] You played and/or collected "Pogs".
[x] You used to pretend to be a MIGHTY MORPHIN power ranger and you own a skip-it.
[x] You had at least one Gigapet nano or tomagachi and brought it everywhere.
[x] You watched the original Care Bears, My Little Pony, and Ninja Turtles.
[] You chew on Major League bubble gum and pretended you were a baseball player chewing tobacco.
[x] All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.
[x] You used to wear those stick on earings even if you had your ears pierced.
[x] You remember a time before the WB.
[x] You watched wild and crazy kids on Nickalodeon.
[x] You've gotton creeped out by "Are you afraid of the dark?"
[x] You thought it would be cool to be Alex Mack.
[x] You know the Macarena by heart..LOL
[x] "Talk to the hand"...enough said.
[x] You thought Brain would finally take over the world and Dot was truly the cutest!

Boredom

For some reason, I cannot be happy today...probably because i had to work. I get so bored at work, it drives me nuts, even though usually, I'm happy at the end of the day because i've made money...but today, i'm not. I don't care if I had made a million dollars today, work was just not good today and i hated it- every moment. I work at Papa Johns Pizza, temporarily because of Winter Break from school...fun fun. I actually cannot wait to get back to school, back to classes, back to a decent routine! Is it weird that I like school? I do...I admit it. I guess I'm one big Book-Nerd, but I dont care. I"m also very bored with life. I wish I could afford to live w/o a job so that I could have actually gone on some kind of vacation during my so-called "vacation"- but instead, I"m working and now in a week and a half, i'll be off to flagstaff again, back to the books, which is still "work". I CANNOT wait until this summer. My friends and I are planning on going to Vegas because many of them are turning 21, while i'll be turning 22, and I really hope it follows through because i know i dont do much, but i really do feel like a need a vacaa....! i want one sooo bad! and my ol' friend in indiana is supposidly coming w/ us and flying out here for a few weeks, so that should be really exciting. anyways, I'm writing a ton of non-sense, so i'm gonna say goodnight. I need to get some sleep to work another 9 hours tomorrow at the good ol' pizza joint! So...'goodnight dear void' {You've got mail}